呢個就係你要走嘅原因 - 搖滾米高

「冷雨夜我在妳身邊 盼望妳會知 可知到我的心 比當初已改變 只牽強地相處」，Michael右手揸住枝咪，左手揸緊拳頭，聲嘶力竭咁唱。

晚上接近10點，Michael同三個朋友喺觀塘工業大廈裡面嘅band房夾緊band。佢唱呢首歌時等別肉緊，因為呢首歌唱緊佢嘅心聲嘛，而其他人亦都如痴如醉咁伴住佢喎。

「原來世界怎麼變 友好的心不損 潮流混亂也不…」呢個時候Michael嘅電話響起，一聽呢個鈴聲，大家都知道係Ivy打嚟喇。

三個band友一齊話：「妖！阻X住晒……下次夾band熄電話吖嘛，X街！」

Michael熄咗個聲，由佢繼續震之後，即刻死晒狗咁話：「sorrysorry，時間差唔多喇，不如去老蘭飲嘢，我請我請。」

落到樓下，Michael好快手咁截咗架的士，叫三個friend坐後面，自己好快咁跳咗上前座，正式向老蘭出發。話咗畀的士哥哥知去邊度之後，Michael斯斯然咁攞部iphone出嚟，打咗幾隻字畀Ivy。

「好累。啱啱放工，去食嘢，你累就瞓先喇，聽日去TST ok? Call u tmr, goodnight bb」搞掂，交咗功課喇，Michael邊笑邊諗，擰轉頭繼續吹水。

「喔噢…」，Ivy放低本書，攞起iphone睇完後覆咗句：「好喇，咁你唔好咁夜喇，聽日見喇，早抖。」之後繼續睇書，11點幾就去咗瞓覺喇。

那邊廂嘅Michael同埋嗰三個band友，梗係狂歡到朝早，去埋附近間翠華填埋肚先番屋企喇。

好喇，講咗咁耐，交待吓Michael同埋Ivy嘅背景先。

Michael份人冇規律、冇交帶、熱情，來者不拒、唔埋同人friend唔friend，總之有人叫，佢一定係第一個話去，當晚最後一個嗌走嘅。細細個就覺得夾band好型，咁啱一年前工作中識到呢班band友，大家就更加一拍即合喇。

而Ivy呢，佢份人重承諾、守時、內向、唔太鍾意熱鬧、咁多年來都好少同埋Michael D朋友出嚟玩。再加上佢幾年前入咗去一間日資公司度做文員，日日對住一叠叠文件，準時番工放工，十分有規律。所以Ivy變得悶上加悶喇。

佢哋兩個嘅性格簡直係南轅北轍，就算話係兩個世界嘅人，都唔算誇張呀。Ivy咁悶，Michael又咁鍾意玩，連弱智嘅世純C都知遲早出問題喇。佢哋兩個都一齊咗9年喇，當中都試過離離合合，離嘅原因梗係性格不合喇，咁點解又會有合呢？之唔係Michael好認真咁話，我今次真係玩夠喇，Ivy又真心相信佢喎，佢哋仲計劃咗下年買樓結婚，Ivy仲連間屋嘅佈置、睡房窗簾嘅顏色都諗好晒添。

星期六係佢哋循例去街嘅日子，不過今個星期六例外。因為咁啱Ivy呢個星期六下畫唔得閒，再加上星期日係Ivy表妹嘅結婚大日子，佢哋約咗一齊去飲，所以就好理所當然咁唔出街喇。Ivy本來要求Michael星期六夜晚一齊食飯嘅，不過Michael話，星期日都見喇，我想留係屋企休息吓，因為呢排做嘢好攰呀。

「Tall Americano and Mocha Frappuccino please。」

星期日嘅黃昏時份，Ivy行入Starbucks，買咗兩杯嘢飲，搵定個位等Michael。因為Michael約親Ivy去街，例牌遲半個鐘嘅。

15分鐘後，Michael急步咁推門入咗嚟，對住Ivy單一單眼，做咗個嬉皮笑臉嘅表情。Ivy諗住好似平時咁開口話佢又遲到，不過，都係算喇，今日冇心情呀。Ivy見Michael氣喘喘咁，即刻遞咗杯Mocha畀佢飲，Michael一路飲，對住Ivy一路笑，仲笑得好甜添。

因為呢一個笑容，Ivy想將個問題吞番落肚度。點知，Michael傻更更咁話：「做咩呀，有嘢想問我呀？」

「吖…..e…係.呀……尋晚9點打畀你冇人聽，你9點幾覆番我話啱啱喺屋企食完嘢，11點幾打畀你又冇人聽電話喇，你咁早瞓嘅？」Ivy口震震咁問。

Michael好似內置電腦program咁，load出標準答案：「係呀，我一食飽就坐咗喺按摩椅度睇電視，好快就瞓著咗喇，醒番嗰時已經係1點幾喇，知你瞓著咗嘛，驚嘈醒bb你呀，你知喇，瞓得唔好一陣影相就唔靚女喇嘛，所以咪冇覆你囉。」

Ivy一聽到佢咁答，衝口而出：「我個friend尋晚喺街見到你同人一齊喎。」

Michael面對呢條問題，hang機了。

其實Ivy呢幾個月嚟一早就覺得有D唔同咗喇。點解以前每晚嘅指定活動「tango fifteen」無端端取消咗，取而代之嘅係一個5分鐘嘅電話時間，到而家進化為一句「你累就瞓先喇, goodnight bb」嘅message。仲有喎，成日都唔聽自己電話，永遠只有等Michael覆，不過次次都等好耐，好似失咗踪咁。仲有兩次明明話自己番咗屋企瞓咗，但又好似唔似真係番咗屋企瞓咗咁嘅呢，真係唔駛去到做律師咁醒先知有嘢喇。

雖然Ivy好似隻豬咁蠢，不過佢一早都估到六七成喇，明示暗示過好多次，不過一直唔直接講之嘛。佢一來希望Michael會變，咁樣可以畀台下階Michael，自己就當咩事都唔知道；二來麻醉自己，話畀自己知估錯咗估錯咗。

dead air咗唔知幾耐之後， Michael竟然答：「There ain't so much to say now between us」

Ivy當然明白晒Michael咩意思喇，雖然佢真係好希望Michael答話你個friend認錯人呀之類嘅廢話，因為咁樣仲有得掹，只要以後Michael唔好再咁樣就會好似冇事發生過一樣。但係而家Michael咁樣答法，Ivy唯有......

接住下一句：「There ain't so much for me anymore，我唔再阻你喇，再見。」

留低咗半杯Americano同埋一個破碎咗嘅心，Ivy匆匆咁走出Starbucks，截咗架的士，自己一個人去表妹嘅婚宴，神奇地，全程佢都冇喊到喎。

「可知道你的不小心 會讓我傷心一輩子 我是願意為了你 今生永不渝」

隨住音樂響起，表妹同埋新郎進場喇，Ivy望一望隔離嗰張空櫈，中終於忍唔住，缺隄了……

That's why (you go away) - Michael Learns to Rock

Baby won't you tell me why

There is sadness in your eyes

I don't wanna say goodbye to you

Love is one big illusion

I should try to forget

But there is something left in my head

You're the one who set it up

now you're the one to make it stop

I'm the one who's feeling lost right now

Now you want me to forget

every little thing you said

But there is something left in my head

I won't forget the way you're kissing

The feeling's so strong were lasting for so long

But I'm not the man your heart is missing

That's why you go away I know

You were never satisfied no matter how I tried

Now you wanna say goodbye to me

Love is one big illusion

I should try to forget

But there is something left in my head

Sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere

Don't know which way to go

There ain't so much to say now between us

There ain't so much for you

There ain't so much for me anymore